there is a method to my maddness just wait & see

I am so hungry already…omg. haha but i am so stuck on this it isnt even funny. 

i have so much riding on this weight loss. 

I want to prove so many people wrong it isnt even funny. Everybody in my family doesnt think i can do it. BUT i am determined to prove them wrong this time. I have failed so many time and this is the last time!!! I want to go to beach this summer with them and roll up and just stun them. I want their jaws to drop and have them just shove everything they have ever said, i want them to just eat their words. they have made fun of me all my life. I am the youngest out of the 6 cousins and the fattest. SO i want to show them that i am an adult and i can do shit on my own and just prove them all wrong.

ALSO i dont want to let down a really good friend of my mine he has always been so super supportive of weight loss but i always have let him down. so i want to do this and show him that i can do this and that im not a flake. 

AND there might be a guy…:/. he wanted to be with me but i chickened out because i was ashamed of my body and i didnt want to see him because of it and now we arent really on speaking terms more like he wont speak to me…-__-.  SO i want to be skinny (healthy) so i can just show him what he is missing out on. (it makes sense in my head) 

XOXO hannah

shmello tumblr world im back and on my weight loss grind. 

this is for real, i have been super sick and i havent been able to do much. Mono can really knock you off your feet. As of right now i’m at around 194 and i hope that i can be around 160 in 3 weeks or so.  I know that sounds risky but i feel like i can do this juicing and working out as much as i can. I am so pumped i would like to be at a good weight at (140) by my birthday which is at the end of April. I am looking forward to starting my journey for the last time (yet again lol). 

I start juicing today (you can watch the movie on it if you would like to know to more about it. Its on netflix it is called “fat, sick, and nearly dead”). 

LET THE DETOX BEGIN!

XOXO hannah